Sick much?

I am trying to ignore the fact that my stomach has not been feeling good for the past few days and I am always either WAY too hot or WAY too cold. I want to have a great time in NC so I refuse to get sick! I also refuse to make myself think they are symptoms because I am over getting my hopes up for every little thing and then having them broken.
More babies! I just found out a friend of mine is pregnant... and they weren't trying, in fact they weren't even wanting kids for a long time. Once again, this proves my theory that Danny and I always seem to have to work SO hard for everything; and I know I shouldn't be complaining because in the end we appreciate things because of all the hard work put in, but jeeze! And don't get me wrong; even though they did not want babies for a while, they are still very excited. They are married, have their own house, jobs, and love for each other, so brining a baby into a house like that is great and I am very happy for them. I just can't help but to also be sad because we have wanted it for months now and still nothing. Make sense?
In other news, I went to a school that is a little closer then the one I am in now and got everything figured out for when I apply to the nursing program in Sept. I found out that the program is only during the day though so if I get accepted I am going to have to figure something out with my job or find a new one. I guess we will see what happens.
Well off to NC I go, I'll post some pics when I get back.

Monday Madness

So it's Monday, and work is going... well not so great. I am SO exhausted and after spending 2 and a half hours in movie theatre chairs last night, my neck feels like there are rods keeping it from moving.
Once again, I am 12 days away from being able to test and although I am not stressing I am still getting the normal "that could be a symptom" thoughts. Anything from my exhaustion to my toe hurting is on that list.
If I am not pregnant this time, I will still be disappointed, but I deal with it rather quickly. I always get that wave of disappointment and then a few seconds later realize now just isn't the right time. Just got to keep trying till it happens. Either way, Danny and I completely enjoy our alone time together so that is a plus when no babies are around. Just got to look on the bright side, and cuddling on the couch with no screaming babies is like sun on a cloudy day bright.
On some other news, we leave for our trip to NC in 4 days♥ I can't wait to see my best friend and our god daughters. I love them, and seeing them always makes me happy. Especially since Heather has always gotten me like no one else. I mean even our xanga's say so (long and a very embarrassing story) :).
Well I am off work in 40 minutes, so until next time.

How do you not think about something so important

So according to my supermom, today would be the day to conceive a baby (I'll keep this G rated) and I trust her advice more than anything, because let’s face it, she blinks and becomes pregnant.
Everyone keeps telling me not to stress, that it will just happen, but how do I just turn my mind off. I feel what I am supposed to feel (according to my mom) and I know that it’s time to get it on with my husband :) but then I have a whole month to just wait and see. It drives me crazy. And the worse is when I am told, just don't use any protection and keep at your normal sex lives and when the time is right, you will conceive. But Hellooo if I KNOW when the time is to conceive and I have sex during that window, then, of course I am going to be anxious each any every time.
Hopefully since my 21st birthday is coming up and I am going to see my bestie in NC next week, the time will go by fast and I won't stress too much.
I don't know, I just hate the hoping and wondering and then having it all shot when you pee on this little stick I have come to think of as the enemy.
People wonder why we want to have kids so young and why we don't just wait. But Danny and I both adore kids and we just want to start a family and bring a child into a loving environment.
We were going to become foster parents and hold off on starting our own family, but Danny didn't think he could handle loving someone so much and protecting them, and then just letting them go. I tried to explain to him that even though it will be a very difficult thing to do, we would be helping these children and giving them something they need more than ever, love. However, most people didn't grow up with parents who fostered kids and then came to have such a big family so I know it's hard for him to see it like I do.
So after work and school today, I will be home with my hubby to do things I will keep unsaid :). Wish me luck... with the conceiving part, I don't need help with the process, I got that department down :)

Working myself sick

So not only is today monday, but I am also getting more and more sick as I sit in front of my computer. It started out as my head spinning and a few sneezes here and there. Now I feel as if I should introduce my head to the toilet and the sneezing is out of control. Not to mention, I feel like I should strip in the middle of the office or else I might have a heat stroke. The cure? Going home at 4, taking a nap before my love gets home, waking up to his sweet kisses, eating junk food for dinner while cuddling up on the couch watching Part 3 of Harry Potter. Don't ask me how, but having my shuga (short for Shuga Luga Boom Boom, yes I am the type to ruin the "nickname criteria" that states a nickname should be short and you shouldn't have a nickname for a nickname) home with me just eating junk food on the couch seems to make everything better ♥
The one not so great perk of getting married so young, is having lots of bills so young lol. So on days like this where I woke up really not wanting to go to work, I thought of living on the streets because we couldn't pay the mortgage and so I got dressed and came in. Now I know what my mom was always talking about when she said, with age come responsibility. O the wise words we never seem to listen to until it hits us in the face. But I know that when we look back on our first home we will be so proud of what we accomplised and it will all be worth it. I mean I could have easily taken a sick day, but I like to save those for when we are in the mood to play hookey together :)
So, with one hour to go until I am home free... I guess I will start working. Until next time!

So being the fact that I haven't "blogged" since I was like 12 and the "cool thing to do" was vent your heart break on Xanga, I guess I should start by reintroducing myself into the blogger world.
Beside the always shocking statement that I am one of thirteen (yes you read it right) kids.
I have the most amazing parents in the world.
I am 20 and married to a wonderful man. Don't worry; you will get to know him like the back of your hand considering he is on my mind most of the day.
We are in the process of starting a family. I am sure you will hear about our many ups and downs in that department. It seems to magically happen to so many others, of course when we are ready to bring a child into a loving and healthy atmosphere, it doesn't happen so easily. God's will is a funny thing, although always the best way in the end.
Both my husband and I work full time and are about to start school full time. Crazy life? O yes, but I love it.
He is going to be starting the Police Academy, while I will be delving into the awesome; yet tiring I'm sure, life of a nurse.
I have great friends, and even though we don't get together as much as we did before, which realistically with babies, college, jobs, marriage and god knows what else, who really could keep the high school group 24/7 together like they always were. Nevertheless, when we all get together, it's always fun times.

So ^^ my life in a nutshell, is it interesting? Maybe not, but you have to know a little something about the person who is blogging, right?

O and in case you were wonder, The Great Unknown title of my blog may be self explanatory, but it is also part of my favorite line in the song posted below:

Artist: Brooks and Dunn
Song: Proud of the House we Built
I dropped to my knees in that field on your daddy's farm.
Asked you to marry me, all I had to give was my heart.
While other kids went diving into swimming holes,
You and me dove off into the great unknown.
We were barely gettin' by, takin' care of each other.
Then I became a daddy; you became a mother.
Was an uphill battle nearly every day,
Lookin' back I wouldn't have it any other way.
I'm proud of the house we built.
It's stronger than sticks, stones, and steel.
It's not a big place sittin' up high on some hill.
A lot of things will come and go but love never will.
Oh, I'm proud.
I'm proud of the house we built.
Still workin' our way through the land of milk and honey.
At the end of the day there's always more bills than money.
I close my eyes at night and I still feel
The same fire in my heart I felt out in that field.
I'm proud of the house we built.
It's stronger than sticks, stones, and steel.
It's not a big place sittin' up high on some hill.
A lot of things will come and go but love never will.
Oh, I'm proud.
I'm proud of the house we built.
Oh, look at us today.
Oh, we've come such a long long way.
I'm proud of the house we built.
It's stronger than sticks, stones, and steel.
It's not a big place sittin' up high on some hill.
A lot of things will come and go but love never will.
Oh, I'm proud.
I'm proud of the house we built.
I'm proud of the house we built.
It's stronger than sticks, stones, and steel.
It's not a big place sittin' up high on some hill.
A lot of things will come and go but love never will.
Oh, I'm proud.
I'm proud of the house we built.